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There are details which cannot be spoken with words, cannot be put in laws, and feelings which cannot be filmed with a camera. We were taught to live in a rational way mainly, but we now know the mind is only a servant to the soul, it is not the soul itself. You are never alone as long as you expand your awareness beyond the mind, into the heart. The field of the heart is were your purpose is grounded, and you are never alone there.
Reach out, and remember who you were before the mind made you think you are separated: a vibrational being, built from light, made to experience the joy and wonder of life. Choose to pull yourself out of the vortex of depression, into the peaceful shore of who you really are. Your power is such that you can always return here, because this is the place that you were born from.
You can do more than you think. You can feel better than you do when you’re on the negative spiral. You don’t have to be a victim of the “social anxiety in a social media society” paradox. Your mind and your heart are supposed to go together, because your heart always knows something your mind doesn’t.
Talk to a stranger
If you feel you can’t talk to your friends or your family, talk to a stranger. Whatever is bringing you down in this moment, you don’t have to do it alone. And whatever it is, it only becomes heavier and feels more real, the more it gets hold of you.
But it’s not real and it doesn’t have to be. What makes it seem real is you being the center of it, allowing it to take over you. It’s like gravity, except you feel like there is no ground beneath your feet, no Earth surface to stop you from falling. Without you at the center, it could not remain in place. So put your awareness into knowing it is in your power to shift your attention somewhere else Now. The way you feel now is not your fault. What you really feel is the disconnection between your mind and your heart, and that’s been caused by the old patterns which created the environment in which you life brought you. But it is not how the world really IS, it’s just the way it appears, and it’s just one movie, seen from one camera, and it doesn’t make it the only one.
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Because being suspended in liquid honey is the closest I could so far describe the feeling of being absolutely in love with something or someone.
Because every time I see a real flower (not the ones produced on a massive scale, with their DNA messed up, so they stay in perfect shape for longer, but with little to no smell at all left), I think to myself: as long as flowers still blossom, there can be no question on the existence of Love.
Because anytime I feel pain, physical or spiritual, I remember that it’s nothing more than evidence of the lack of love, or scarcity of it. Even the pain inflicted by others, because that’s nothing more than a request for attention from those who do it.
Because tea is a form of liquid love which you pour inside your body, with hours and hours of good “side effects”. Tea is the story of the planet, encapsulated in the pores of leaves, that starts to unfold once again under hot water, being brought back to life, for enough time to whisper to our souls about the magic of life. And it is the echo which reverberates inside our organs and veins, getting us back to our primary rhythm. Connecting our mind, heart and root energies in a stronger bond, while washing away the traces of dis-ease and the inevitable frustration built up over time, from the walls of inner landscapes.
I’m talking about the tea made from the plants grown on chemical-free soil, hand-picked and sun-dried, you know, the right kind, that keeps the sun and the wind in them, after the water has evaporated. Not those things with 7 labels on the package to convince us that they are natural, when in fact no memory of how they’re supposed to smell or taste remains in those tea bags. Evidence of desperate attempts of men in white robes debating on how to imitate nature, and multiply something which just looks like it, for the bigger profit.
Because it’s the air that keeps us alive, and the air which eventually oxides and erodes the appearances of the body and the material into oblivion, so that the new could emerge.
All those little love makings triggered by each breath in and out feed little rivers of new life throughout my internal universe. And so I know I am being loved as long as I am the recipient of this exchange of new and old.
Because I am water. We are more like water than like any other thing. We are more like water, air, and thought, than we like to admit at this point in time. Water is synonym to magic. It heals, clears, nurtures and transforms. It can transform in anything it needs: patience, impatience, nurture or destruction. It holds the knowledge of the Earth. Life could not begin unless we were fully immersed in the sacred communion liquid first. While humans barely communicate trough words and actions, the Earth communicates through the wind, the water, us, and everything else.
7. The Sun
Because most things follow the Sun, and I feel them all a part of me. Because me and the trees miss it badly in the winter. Because few things can escape the secret agreement it has with the other things that remind me of Love, and also with every cell of my being, such as it is perceived within the boundaries made by men.
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Frustration, disappointment, anger. All unnecessary. I’ve lost count of the people who said No, or said Yes, but didn’t follow through. Maybe it was Romania, maybe it’s me, maybe it’s part of life anywhere in world. Maybe it’s Mercury on a bad day, again. I used to take it personally, but then I realized that it’s not my place to rationalize and that the only thing coming out of it was self poisoning with negative feelings. And we all know how slippery that spiral is.
We’ve all been in situations when things didn’t go our way. How many times did we look back and realize that forcing our will onto those who said No, would’ve lead to today’s regret?
When someone says No to you, don’t be mad, be grateful. They’re just showing you the direction you should be going, on the road map of your soul’s journey.
Frustrare, dezamăgire, nervi. Toate, ne-necesare.
Am pierdut numărul daților în care mi s-a zis Nu, sau în care mi s-a zis Da, după care nu s-a mai întâmplat nimic. Poate era România, poate sunt eu, poate e așa peste tot în lume. Poate e Mercur retrograd și s-a … comunicarea. În sinea mea, încercam să raționalizez ce se întâmplase, dar asta nu m-a ajutat vreodată cu ceva. Tot ce reușeam să obțin era o auto-otrăvire cu sentimente negative, și știm cum e cu spirala aia alunecoasă.
Cu toții am fost în situații în care lucrurile n-au decurs așa cum ne doream. De câte ori ne-am uitat în urmă, să vedem că, dacă forțam lucrurile, am fi regretat acum?
Când cineva te refuză, nu o lua ca pe un afront. Consideră că ți s-a arătat încotro s-o iei, pe harta drumului ce aparține sufletului tău.
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…it wasn’t the object, it was the light through it.
If you put 10 photographers in the same room and give the same type of camera and a glass on a table, and tell them to take a picture, you will get 10 different ways in which you can see that glass.
We all have a different relation with light. Some like it dim, some like it bright, some like clear details, some only live for the trails of movement, others will choose the most unrecognizable angle of that object, just to play with your mind.
In the end, what we choose to see and to remember about it – is what we think is the truth.
Light becomes the intersection between our perspectives and a global language for our subjectivity.
… credeam că e obiectul, dar, de fapt, era lumina ce trecea prin el.
Iei 10 fotografi, le dai același tip de cameră și un pahar pe o masă să-l fotografieze, și obții 10 feluri de a vedea fotografic acel pahar.
Fiecare avem o relație personală diferită cu lumina. Unora le place mai slabă, altora mai puternică, unii preferă detaliile clare, alții savurează cadrele ce surprind urma unei mișcări; mai sunt și cei care aleg cel mai neașteptat unghi al obiectului, doar ca să se joace cu reacția publicului.
În final, ce alegem să vedem și să memorăm despre ceva, este varianta noastră de adevăr.
Lumina devine astfel locul în care perspective diferite se intersectează, reîinnoind constant limbajul global al subiectivității noastre.
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Until a few years ago, I was my worst critic. I never ran short of negative self judgement. I kinda felt there were other ways to do things, but it seemed like everybody else around me did it, so I thought, well, who am I to do otherwise? Not to be mistaken for a conformist. I did it my way. 🙂 But I was living in the mind.
I’m not gonna go into the how and why I got there, because I would probably need to write a book to tell the whole story. But I can give you a glimpse of what it looks like, and what I think of it, as I am still shaking off the last bits and cutting off the last strings of the burden that it has built around me and my life, while being attached to it. Some may even be feeling a bit of relatableness 🙂 So grab a cup of tea, this will be, at times, a bit… chilly.
I know how cruel the life of those living only in the mind is, because I did it too, for a long time.
It’s a cold place, which you constantly try to warm up with ego things and you never quite manage to.
Every time you think you made it, something, someone bigger, faster, stronger, will dwarf you.
It’s the way of the world, the natural process of growth. And yet, when you are in the mind and live off the land of ego, nothing will soothe the pain, since you only play for the first, spotless place.
Anything which starts with the second place and goes downwards, is for losers.
Sure, this way to live and be has made our race stronger… or did it?
Did we learn to keep our tears inside? Are we more ourselves now?
Are we pleased?
Outcomes and underlayings
Poverty, violence, war, racism, old laws that cause injustice, pollution, intolerance, disease.
The personal dramas, the natural catastrophes,
a picture of an earth that seems to forgive the bad and punish the good.
Yet, these are not the real problems, in the sense that they are not unsurpassable. All these things have solutions. Real ones.
On paper, everybody knows them. Sadly, in practice, there’s something underneath them, which constantly sabotages their fulfillment: the underlying ones. Instead of allowing ourselves to thrive and soar, our efforts seem like stones in a game of backward Tetris, unconsciously dissolving everything that’s on top. Those underlying problems aren’t complicated, and not hard to understand, but we lack the muscle for it; and they are simple in fact: we don’t take care of our bodies and we live in the mind. Sounds too easy, doesn’t it? You would think that we are here for higher purposes, right? Well, what if that higher purpose would start to reveal its true nature only after you solved these first two?
Vessels of life
If we would just take a moment, and stay still, and reflect.
I’m not sure which is worst, ignoring your body or believing you are your mind.
Both however make a recipe for disaster.
We think that we don’t have to listen to our bodies, but to everything else around them; when actually, the Universe is within us too. We know what we need, so that we can function at an optimal level. But we just don’t want to. We can’t. We need to many permissions, it has to first be all over the news. We need a campaign and a montage!
Denying the very space inside of us, and its requirements, is what leads to the primary structure on which we sew our negative emotions, bad feelings and unwanted outcomes.
Nothing would be simpler, and yet more effective, than to turn inside. Yet somehow, most of us spend a lifetime running away from it, in this mad quest for an ever-eluding picture of happiness and what we are taught it should be.
In a fast paced world, nobody seems to have the time for such un-graspable matters.
When did we decide that this formula would be good for ourselves:
don’t eat natural foods
don’t drink water
don’t get fresh air and sun
don’t get enough sleep?
Not listening to our bodies is actually not listening to the divine power that created us, call it whatever you fancy. We tool and harden them, instead of loving them. It seems easier, although it’s a bad long-term management decision. In time, it will prove to be harder.
Why do we do it?
because for so many years, we have been taught how to imitate an ideal that serves the industrial type of productivity, we scheduled our hours and efficiency, trying to imitate machines.
A German might call me a Greek. But this is not about disproving what already is, it’s just to ask: what do we really still need?
We ignore the little signals until they become a huge cry, then we go to the doctor and get quick fixes or permanent ones. Society loves sacrifice stories, but do we still need them to feel worthy?
Back to the mind: when you only live in it, or mostly in it, you make a choice of being its servant, instead of making it your servant. Everything has to be a challenge, in order to reaffirm your choice; a mountain, something to be conquered. Stillness is death.
We have an overly masculine approach on everything, even though femininity is the symbol for creation, creativity and nurturing, thus for positive growth.
Maybe applying a few feminine principles would spare us greatly of the negative outcomes we face.
Maybe the two, the masculine and the feminine, should be sewed in a more balanced manner into most decisions, if not all decisions. How would the world look then?
One paradox of the mind is that, although it doesn’t have all the facts, it behaves as though it has only the negative possible ones. Then, it shuts down or ignores the communication with the heart, and makes perfect excuses for distrusting it all. God forbid we should accept we need attention or to love ourselves, before we first hammer ourselves into avoiding to acknowledge that. It’s an acquired reflex. There’s no need for a teacher or a supervisor, we can punish the self and the others without any help. What’s better than persecution? Self-persecution. We’ve become masters of the blaming game, always on a lookout for possible candidates, that we can offer some home-made anger treats to.
We embrace the ego so tightly and then ask the divine to give us answers for why our lives aren’t better than they are. We like greed, envy, jealousy, to be possessive, to control and manipulate; we think maybe if we keep going like that, we will somehow imitate true power. They’re like artificial sweeteners and hydrogenated fats in your desert, a brief somewhat pleasurable taste, but then they damage all tissues they come in contact with…
Mindfulness? slow food? grinding your own coffee? meditation? Ain’t nobody got time for that!
A shadow of reason
We’ve become so skilled into shooting our own dreams down.
When did we decide the power to change is not ours?
When did we outsource responsibility?
At what point did we accept to be in a constant state of unworthiness?
Was it when philosophers first came to be, when they seemed to be people destined to solve problems which required (more) time to think?
It seemed deep thinking and rabbit holes were for philosophers, creativity was for artists, building houses was for masons, and the matters of the spirit were for priests and monks.
Did that left the rest of the people with in-between jobs (purposes)?
Do we go to fortune tellers and truly expect them to map out our next moves, when in truth, the map is inside us, and we, subconsciously or consciously, draw it ourselves as we go?
Was it in our education over the years, the mentality that brought us to record and execute, but not to understand?
Why do we let our bodies and our lives to something else other than our own hands?
We settled for less. Probably because it seemed easier to appear as victims, than to appear as anything stronger than that.
Responsibility means accountability, nobody wants that. The victim cannot be guilty, right?
We’ve mistaken instincts for feelings, and to be powerful with being destructive or unchangeable.
Why is it so hard for people to fight for what they know is best for them?
Is it because they don’t know they can ask for it?
Are we afraid of being called “lazy”, “a wuss”, “a rebel”? What’s the label you fear most?
Who do you need permission from to be yourself and claim your right to wellbeing?
The demons that live inside and around you need your permission too. They feed primarily on fear. They grow stronger with each dive into anger, and each fake desert you have.
And at what point did the mind became the only seemingly reliable tool?
“Here’s a soul: now go on living like you don’t have one.” Wouldn’t we all be just brains? How creepy would that be?
We should understand that we have been given a sacred space and vessel of communication, and that we are obligated to care for it the best way we can.
We should see that only in this space we share the management position with the power that created us.
We should understand that having a brain does not mean we only have that. The mind is but a servant. Someone said that the mind is the captain that stirs the boat, but not the boat itself.
We are a resonating space, that when let to it, goes in tune with all universal forces. Being there for ourselves is what gives way for that to happen.
We are the ones that shut down the opportunities which lie on the other side of victimhood.
Our bodies are meant to move us and hold our spirits.
Stepping across that line between fear and manifestation of our inner gifts is what drives the human spirit after all. Caring for yourself is caring for the way you care for others. When you are not whole, you can’t give the same way you would as when being that way.
Let the bridges between your heart and your mind reconnect. Let them go together. Then tie back the loose ends of your body’s needs, these are two gifts you can give yourself anytime, that no one else can give you. Make yourself whole again, that is how you first came here anyway.
Versiunea în română: https://soulpatterns.wordpress.com/2013/06/07/doua-lucruri/