oil/canvas, 25×45 cm, 2017
art, beginning, birth, bliss, body, consciousness, creativity, death, destiny, energey center, experiment, faith, human, instinct, orange, painting, pattern, primal, process, red, root chakra, Sacral Chakra, scatter, sphere, structure, time, vibration, watercolors, yellow
Patterns scattering across consciousness…
The everchanging process mistaken for a structure,
dying to be born again,
weaving itself onto the abstract notion of time,
we forget we were born out of the vibration of bliss.
This is our only true faith,
of becoming again one with what created us in the beginning.
Feminine, fragile, powerless, bright.
The best image of you is a prisoner of the public eye.
An angel of many demons.
A true star. A human faith.
A destiny to define contagious sensuality and to bring joy.
The drama behind her glowing smile is yet to be fully comprehended.
Versiunea în română: https://soulpatterns.wordpress.com/2013/05/04/gratie-melancolie/
Little sleep, many ideas, not too much time to prepare.
Two people, myself and a very good friend of mine, one camera, coffee and lots of takes. I usually wear glasses, but we decided we should shoot without them.
The set fell two times, my system crashed before I almost finished the final edit of the video, and I had to redo the whole thing all over again.
So, after what seemed like forever, here’s the result:
Thank you Alex.
music by: Chris Zabriskie
Thank you Time tv. The clip is also featured here:
Versiunea în română: https://soulpatterns.wordpress.com/2013/03/28/scurt-interviu/
art, black and white, black lace, conclusions, dream, ever changing, gavel, glass, intersections, justice court, light, matter, mind, painting, ray, reflects, scent, self portrait, share, smile, sun, thoughts, transforms, window
Many times the conclusions only last as long as you bang the gavel in the justice court in your mind.
Everything is subject to transformation, as we find ourselves at the light and matter intersections.
Don’t u wanna find me?
Black lace and a hidden smile,
The scent u can’t remember
But u would like to,
The cold glass of the table
Reflects your thoughts.
While the sun rises somewhere else…
But don’t close the window.
Let the night fall in first,
I just stole the last ray
Maybe we can share it in a dream.
Versiunea în română: https://soulpatterns.wordpress.com/2013/03/24/autoportret-cu-dantela/
When you push me on the street, I am.
When I manage not to be mean, although you deserve it, I am.
When I am mean and it’s too late to take it back, so much so that it make’s me resent myself for months, I am.
When you try to deceive me, I am.
When you try to steal my dignity, I am.
When you can’t explain why I’m not responding in hate, I am.
When I remember the good, and send love to the people who want to bring me down, I am.
Versiunea în română: https://soulpatterns.wordpress.com/2013/03/24/autoportret-in-dialog/
accept, alone, art, be, center, created, drop, echos, fail, hate, heart, home, infinite, knowing, lake, love, meditative, mind, pain, painting, place, questions. answers, release, resistance, safe, self portrait, separated, shift, turmoil, weightless
So great. You had most of the questions answered in your mind. But what do you do when the answer shifts? When it’s not the same the next day, with the next person? When the sense it made yesterday just isn’t there anymore?
When all else fails, descend in the heart.
Get out of your mind, close the door, take the key with you and descend into your center.
This is where you own your true self, this is where you see that hate is just the absence of love, and pain is a result of that. It’s a place where the notion of “alone” does not exist, you were never separated from the energy that created you.
It’s a place where numbers and words are weightless. It is the home of all knowing. When you rest here, all echos of resistance and turmoil subside.
A drop in this infinite lake will not produce any waves. There is no need for proof, you don’t have to do anything in order to be. Accept and release all. You are safe.
Versiunea în română: https://soulpatterns.wordpress.com/2013/03/24/autoportret-reflexiv/
…made from the same cloth, thus connected in that unexplainable, yet undeniable way.
…făcuţi din acelaşi material; inexplicabil, dar fără indoială, conectaţi.
There are (at least) two sides to every story, two possibilities, two ways in which we could’ve done something. There’s always another direction you didn’t choose to go, that’s why we admire most those people who did what we might’ve done. Or maybe envy them. Inhale and exhale, there’s no other way you can do breathing, and it’s never just one of the two. Receive and give. Do just one for too long, and soon you experience discomfort. The space between the sound waves creates the rhythm. There’s a time for the sun to enliven all things, and a time for all things to do nothing but rest. Inside and outside, spoken and unspoken, we live on the subtle threshold of our choices, with duality running through our veins.
Versiunea în română: https://soulpatterns.wordpress.com/2013/03/16/dual/
What it is that makes us futurize the negative?
Is it the movies we watch, where we always see a struggle, something to be overcome, something to be proven? Do we need a reason to consider ourselves worthy?
Is it the unconscious need for perfection that we are taught to pursue since we first get our grades in school?
Is it the self-preservation instinct, which falsely reassures us that, if we stay put, nothing bad could happen to us?
Is it a self sabotaging practice that we’ve, again unconsciously, inherited from our predecessors, who maybe lived tougher times, and which conditioned us into being over cautious of everything?
Or is it because we missed the simple fact that what we focus on expands? That, in the end, it’s all about the things you choose to believe. What do you choose to make of things?
Sooner or later, your inner life will manifest in your reality. It already happened so many times. It’s in the situations you anticipated that would go wrong, it’s in the times you’ve said to yourself: “this will get done, if it’s the last thing I do”.
Did you notice that life already feels a certain way? And did you notice when you first gave up on your own happiness?
Did you look at the world and thought: “wow, there are so many of us, how can there be room for everyone to be happy?!”
Is the only time you feel free or closer to happiness – when you get lost in a good movie, or book, or another person?
Let’s take a break. From the media, from thinking good things only happen to others. The media is only a way to get connected, it’s not the actual fuel of our being.
When we confuse the two, we get depleted and make room for the negative to thrive.
Of course, we can influence other people’s manifestations and they can do the same to us. But what would happen if we made more and more conscious choices every day, about what to focus on? Just say “I’m gonna start imagining a good thing happening to me”. It doesn’t have to be perfect. But it has to include your wellbeing. All you need is some trust. Aren’t we all pieces of the same Universe anyway? What if we would let ourselves slide like beads on the universal orbits?
I’m not saying let’s ignore all the problems. But instead of chasing blame recipients and punishment strategies, let’s see how did the problem came to be
and how can we get closer to the solution. Understanding the DNA of a thing that looks like an obstacle, is usually the shortest path to the ingredients for an unforseen good outcome.
It’s all pre-wired within ourselves, the tools are already there, we just need to pick them up.
Did you know that “focus” actually means “heart”?
Versiunea în română: https://soulpatterns.wordpress.com/2013/03/13/viitor-negativ/
We are all energetic clusters, manifestation of a divine, ever evolving, love based equation. We are lucky to have been chosen as a part of all that is.
Breathe. Tune in. Reconnect.
Now is all you will ever really have.
Romanian version: https://soulpatterns.wordpress.com/2013/03/08/campuri-de-energie/